Hmm, so, when I had no Internet, I began to have this random thinking session. It was a really weird/emotional thinking session... I began crying in the end anyways. I began thinking whether I was considered a best friend to anyone irl. :/ I've had a pretty rough past, I wasn't able to fit in with anyone in school until 2 years ago, everything went smoothly for like a year but now everythings awkward. I don't feel right anymore. I feel like I've taken a turn for the worst and just changed in a bad way recently. I feel like I've turned into a bitch and I don't want to be that. I want to be the quiet, nice girl like I have been the past years. My attitude has changed a lot too. And I'm not proud of it. I haven't really changed into this mega bitch where I'm rude to everyone and that, I've just... I dunno how to explain it. I'm still a nice girl, I love talking to people and shit like that but this thinking session makes me want to change back to the girl I was. I always also seem to be the one that's first to arrange something or whatever.. one day I'd love it if someone came to me and arranged something or whatever. Urgh, it's too confusing. Anyway, this whole random blog was just revolved around a question.. I am really actually beginning to wonder if I'm considered a best friend to anyone or if I'm just a person/friend to them. I have the best 3 friends, I couldn't ask for anything better but am I considered a true best friend to them? Or am I even considered a friend?
Sayounara.
xoxo.
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