Your God.

Hey.

I did say in my previous post that I was going to continue with the concert and meeting one of my hero posts in the next blog post, but I'm not going to just yet. It requires a lot of writing and quite frankly, I'm not in the best of moods to write about it right now.

Meh, yeah, maybe thinking about them two days may lighten up my mood a bit, but I think I'm far too upset right now that nothing will cheer me up. I think all I need is to relax with a hot beverage and a nice movie, but nope, that's not going to happen as my brother has taken the DVD player into his bedroom. Hey, I could watch a movie on my laptop I guess... wait, nope, not happening either because my laptop isn't currently accepting anything like that. So basically, I'm screwed.

And it's weird. I don't even know what has really upset me. I mean, almost an hour ago, I was happy because my favourite band got through in the Fuse polls. Maybe it was the fact that all of the other fans started hating on Stone Sour because they got through? I don't know. It wasn't extreme hating, if I had to be honest, but it was enough to upset me. Not a single soul could insult my favourite band, or hero as a matter fact, without me getting upset. No way.

Maybe it's because I wrecked a friendship the other day - possibly the only true friendship I currently have. But hey, I'm a pathetic loser, I tend to do stuff like this to myself. You probably won't read this, because I won't be advertising this blog on Twitter or anything like that, but I really am sorry for doing what I done. Technically, I didn't really do anything, I was just ranting, but you immediately thought it was about you, and then you started re-directing tweets to me, indirectly. And that upset me. It upset me so bad because I didn't want to see you do that, especially towards me. How could you do that to me when for the past few weeks, I've been there for you? I just don't understand. But maybe I don't matter to you anymore, because I'm not important to you. All because I don't share the same interest to you - anime. I'm sorry, I truly am. I don't want our friendship being awkward anymore. You hardly talk to me anymore, and I've apologised to you a billion times. Maybe that's not good enough. Maybe I should just move on. It's for the best.

Ugh, I just need a hug. But I can't even do that. I don't have many friends. It's sad, because the people I'm close to live miles and miles away, and there's a chance that I'll never ever meet them, and the only reason I'm close with these people is because they understand.

Ugh, screw this. I'm fed up of hiding. I'm fed up of acting like I'm happy when I'm truly not. I'm finished with blogging. I'm finished with everything.